i'm tired... fed-up... and unhappy... shud back to my previous life... where i won't feel awful...

"boss, i'm quit!!"

really got fed-up by this stupid job!!! being bored evryday... come ofix msn, online shopping, do a little bit job, n countdown for knock off...haiz...when can i stop counting down??!
i nid a new job..so dear...can u plz help me to get a new job? i thnk shipping isn my 'cup of tea'.. even if he paid me high, gif me a high post, is juz cant make me happy n my motivation towards tis job is getting lesser n lesser...
i thnk i nid to change my job b4 i'm mould-ed...
i realy dunno ath abt shipping n i hv no idea of wat shud i do as an AM..it's juz so tough n suffer...i thnk is time for me to quit..
~working hrs long (10 hrs / day)
~no OT paid
~boring
~making life meaningless
~mind torturing
~lack of motivation
~lack of food choices..
eth can make me feel wan to leave...lol
dear, i miss u so much... hope can meet up soon...luv u oways.

To my beloved best fren...Suvy

dunno y, whenever i feel weak n nid courages sure wil come here...whenever i come here, means tat i hv reached my limitation to counsel myself...
Dear, i realy miss u a lot... how i wish u were wif me now...juz lend me a shoulder wil do...i wont ask for too much...so wish to run away...bcoz i realy do not noe wat de hell i want...
all de sufferance n frustration r killing me...i noe i shudn over-negative thinking...n i shudn mind abt it so much...juz nid a talk wif u..
dear, miss u n love u oways...

dear, how i wish i can cry all de damn things out...but dunno y my tears juz couldn come out...mayb i hv bcome stronger...or mayb i'm too strong to b hurt...
i'm gonna b fine...soon...all i nid is time...
going to breakdown...i've asked my fren play badminton wif me next week, nid to release all my frustration, sadness...i'll b strong...nvr gonna let myself breakdown...dun wry...
i nid ur shoulder...lend me when u back..

亲爱的...
刚在他前女友的面子书看到一些东西...觉得他还是很关心她...
她有做婚礼策划的工...前几个星期吧...她在工作的时候,他买午餐去给她...
不知道为什么..我觉得他还是放不下她...我想即使我付出的再多,也比不上她...
因为她会愿意跟他结婚,生孩子...我做不到...

dear, i'm sry tat i din kip tis place properly, i noe is de important memory to us... truly sry..feel guilty..

i'll try to come here often..nvr let tis memory gone away...

realy mis u a lot.. seem got a lot of thngs happen ter, wish my ears n shoulder stil useful to u.. i dunno wat exactly has happened during these few mths, bt stil hope u can get truf it soon.. dun b upset upon tos thngs again..

hw r v going to celeb our 17th anniversary? desaru plan stil going? coz is monsoon season, might not b able to go ter, so i thnk v better prepare a plan B..discuss it again after u bek.

i'm fine.. dun wry abt me.. i stil can live w/o man..^^ he hasn paid me bek de full sum, n i dunno hw to open mouth to him, seems like i'm de 1 shud feel guilty~n my tot of not getting married is getting stronger..coz c a lot of unhapy marriage recently, even my parents.. i dunno whether tolerant is de best way to solve all the prob or avoiding is to cease de prob,realy confuse...men chng all de time..

tat day, a stranger on facebk in kuching ask me to go ter,n he wil show me around, den i said no $ no time to go, he said he has a voucher of 2d1n of a hotel, persuade me to go.. crazy.. hw wud i possible go ter n look for a stranger... i dun even c his face clearly..

n i got a bf fr lebanon... lol.. but he has gone bek to lebanon alr, b4 tat he was in kl..but his eng i realy cant u'stand, like an indian, even tou he is fr mid east..

miss u much.. gif me a call when u bek.. i can go n fetch u if u drop by larkin bus station.. c u in dec. luv u~

p/s: send u a rose as apology...^^

i hv a vry long time din come n update my blog..haha~~so sry to my dear dear...
tmr i wil b going to interview, bt dunno wil success or nt.. i hv jobless abt 1 mth alr,
life is bored 4 me wif nth to do...
miss u so much.. bt v wil met in aug rite? muz wait 4 me..ur training wil b ended on 22nd aug,
is a friday... so, i wil try to go on tat day or 23rd..
u realy r a gd person.. i'm nt tat gd as u said... my fren ask me to go genting wif him,
bt i realy dunno whether i can make it or nt, bt i noe de other frens hv reject him alr...
actualy he wants to celeb his b'day in genting, so i'm lost...dunno shud reject or nt...
'no' is realy a damn shit word to come out fr my mouth~~~~~~~~
i'm fine.. realy.. bt trying to find sth to do.. i shud b going to modelling contest 2day,
bt i cant find their office, cant reg, so cant take part.. it's nt my own wish to take part,
my fren encouraged me to go..bt i make him disappointed again..
all the best to u!! i'm trying to save more $ so tat can look u up in aug... luv u!!