end of de year~~

Dear,
i was focusing on doing my homework... it's quite busy recently, cos has been spending my weekends on mum's b'dae celebration and x'mas, so nid to catch up watever module tat i can...but, i hv completed de work last nite...
接下来要继续昨晚的话题。。。我生气的不是他没有空理我，是答应了又做不到，而且还跟我大小声。。而且一直说做这些都是为了我，为我什么？我都没有要他这样做，而且也不能保证以后我真的会嫁给他，住在那间屋子里。。真的不明白。。最后还说我讲话很幼稚，根本没有体谅他的感受，不想跟我说话。。既然这样，我也无话可说，就不要跟他说话， 然后又跑来哄我，跟我讲话，叫我不要闷不吭声。。==|||是他说不想跟我说话的叻！那种感觉就想狠狠地刮了我一巴掌，再给我一支超大的棒棒糖。。无奈。。再接下来的日子，就叫我不要再提这件事了。。现在我也懒得跟他吵了。。永远都没有结果的东西。。反正有什么事也会自己解决，不会再麻烦他，也不会要他的帮忙，到最后什么都做不到，还要浪费力气吵架，生气。。显~

T^T

Dear,
i'm very moody...drag myself to work everyday... you know sth?? i got no bonus for this yr, coz my boss said due to TN policy, i cant enjoy company benefit if i hvn worked for it for 1 full yr...so i can officially tell you tat i'm being cheated to join de com n at de end i get nth but only wasting a lot of my youth here...
well, not only tat, now stil hv to pretend nth happen, n b resposible to de job even tou my boss oways wan me to do better n better n better or even de best or perfectly.. no single mistake can b accepted..
some more dis morning, he scold me bcoz of sth which wasn't done by me but other ppl..den i said it wasn me, den he juz simply ignore n dun k...wtf..
dunno whether when i made de decision to b here is rite or not... it is juz too late to regret now..i tot i can b better in dis industry, but i thnk i was wrong as i was cheated to join... some more ter r some rumours outside, saying tat i'm tat kind of $ minded person, if they gif me $, den i can betray my com blah3... haha.. unbelievable... seems like in de entertainment industry, got paparazzi some more...
but, it's ok.. coz i'm proving to them tat i'm not tat kind of ppl wat they tot...

I hate it!!

Dear,
ytd my boss said that i oways make de simplified mistake when i'm busy.. well, these few days r truly vry bz for me.. but den i admit tat i did make a small mistake, but it doesn affected ath or anyone.. den he said i oways rush to go bek home, when de 5.45pm is coming, i seem like realy wanna go home on time, n make mistake, but den i din rush at all.. some more de jobs can b waited until de next day to complete.
actualy i wanted to argue wif him, but i din..he doesn pay us OT wat, den y shud v stay ter n do tos not urgent work? is he de 1 said tat our working hr is 8.45-5.45 only, den of coz i'll b in de ofix at tat 9 hrs rite, after tat is up to me to go bek or staying or going to other places rite?
i dunno y he wan to bother so much of thngs to ctrl us? i thnk my mum was rite, she said my boss tot tat he offers a damn gd job to evry1, so evry1 wan to work for him.
also, tat day, he talked to me abt transfering a gal fr gelang patah to our ofix, den i said she might not want it bcoz she lives in pontian, it is vry far for her to come all de way to molek, even petrol oso cant cover. den my boss said he doesn k abt it, as long as he is happy, n gd for de gal, so she muz come here to work. wtf! who does he thnk he is?! he din offer her a gd salary oso, rm1500 expected ppl come all de way to here fr pontian, not even petrol allowance! i told my mum abt dis isu, den my mum said he tot he is de only boss in dis world.
now, i do feel like...true.. he juz thnk of himself, n dun k abt de staffs... well, since i hv decided to lif, so i wont k much abt wat he says agn, n will juz do watever i can..